天涯海角

醒来后只是梦境 才发现身边没你

原来最残忍的是想象力

醒来后清楚听见 寂寞在耳边叹息

寻觅安抚我的声音

没有你 我的世界失去了色彩

没有你 我对生命失去了期待

没有你 我宁愿永远沉睡不要醒来

我愿意走过天涯飞过海角

只要能够守候在你身边

我愿意用这辈子让你相信

这就是唯一 幸福结局

拉开紧闭的窗帘 以为能暂时抽离

阳光却让失落更清晰

我想要夺门而去

彷佛再多等一秒钟就会来不及

醒来以后 我身边没你

最残忍的 是想象力

清楚听见 寂寞在叹息

寻觅安抚的声音

这就是唯一 幸福的结局

幸福的结局

This is one of the my dear lee hom's latest song which I like it very much... The song is describing my feeling and my thought right now.. Really feel damn lonely when apart with the one you love.. Feel like the life so meaningless..Everything also need to rely on your own imagination to miss someone to trust someone to imagine he is always be with you when you need support.. Although i had gone through this kind of life more than my expectation but indeed It's really so sad when you think back... I need more power and strength to make myself more stronger... haiz ~

Unpredictable Life

People used to said this word " Life is hard to predict ".. Now i finally know hows this word works in my life..

I do admit last time i was an emotion, lack of self-confident girl and perhaps feel pessimism for certain matters. I used to think scare to said "no" to people, scare people will easily forget at me, scare people not trusting at me, scare the feeling that losing things that important and mean to me and many more. This is who i am for last time..But i thought it was gone away from me long time ago.. I thought i had successfully change to a girl that full with confident and became optimism than last time...Feel more braver to face any problems that come to me..

But unfortunately the truth always make people feel heart-breaking..

Recently there's alot things happen in my life.. until I almost can't take it.. The more i protect the more i strive for but end up things never happen like what i expect.

What i get just a shattered dreams and hope only..

I really have a feeling that just want to put down everything and run away from all these annoying matters.. make my life more easier..

Guest what... All my "best friend" come back to me once again.. haha.. God really fooling me around... Again now all this feelings "living and stay" with me..

Now my brother staying so far away from home and family.. staying at a place far from city and full of criminal cases city .. like what he said "jungle life"..Studying suppose a fun things but he seems like suffering..i wish i have money to let him study in a better environment but too bad i cant help and protect him for that.. what a bad sis i am...:(

At yet my best friend just admitted to hospital because she found that she have a dermoid cyst on her uterus.. the worst part was i just got to know her recently life was full of difficulty because she had experienced all the bad incidents all together in her life..

I feel so shame and so sad because as a best friend of her, when ever i need her, she will always be with me no matter what happen but i can't even accompany with her to go through this sucks things and let her alone with all these..

I really really feel so sorry and angry at myself.. :(

WHY all this will happen in my life???? Can somebody tell me why??

Now what i can do is blessing for them.. I really hope everything will be fine..

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Today not only my special day but also a special day with my S.I.S.T.E.R.S... A reunion for me & my best friends.. We haven't meet each other for a long period.. I really miss them alot...

They are not only my best friends but i also threat them like a part of my family... Our friendship was gone through alot of hardships and difficulties.. God had made me understand that a true friend will always be with you no matter what happen.. they never leave you alone when you need them.. This is what my sisters doing to me... That's y i m appreciating them so much...

Today i really enjoy with you girls.. This is the day that i really feel happy and enjoy since a long period.. Really thanks alot for you all singing for me and accompany me in this such a special day..

You Girls are really ROCK my WORLD today!!

Thank you so much my sisters: Jia Ling, Kar Men, Poh Yee & Huli..

I Love You Girls..^^

P/S 1: Huli.. really thanks alot for helping my DarLing gave me such a memorable day for me.. i really appreciate it so much.. It's really make me feel so touching & happy...

P/S 2: Phui Yee even though you wasn't here today but dont worry.. You were never be alone because you have US!! ^^

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Today is a special day for me & my DarLing..^^ Is our 2nd years anniversary..

My darling.. there's alot of things i wan to tell you that how much i miss you rite now.. i miss the moment that you with me and support.. You never make me feel like i was alone before.. I just know whenever i need you, you will always be with me..

Please forgive me for my selfishness that make us apart.. but please do trust me that i love you more than everything..

DarLing, Thanks for the surprise that you gave me.. It's really make me feel so touching & happy.. i really appreciate it so much..^^

Although i wish you will be here with me in this special day but the things that you did already is more than enough.. I shouldn't be greedy and feel happy for that..

** Darling.. i just wan to tell you how much i love you..

Thanks for giving me such a memorable anniversary..**

My 1st Month Working Life in Penang~

Few weeks never update my blog lu.. Finally today got time to write something on my blog...^^ hehe...

Time really flied damn fast like rocket..I still couldnt believe i alomost work for a month already.. it was so fresh for me, the things like just happen few day ago.. I do enjoy working at here even though the working environment wasn't strange for me anymore but because of the responsibilities is totally different and learning cashiering is quite challenging eventhough i always make mistakens because not familiar with things but its a good opportunity for me to sharpen myself to be more better...I do wish i can do much more better thn i expect.. i wish i can achieve it as soon as possible..

May god blessing me..~

This few weeks, i started to get used to live withhout my DarLing... Perhaps its because we always contact and texting each other so it make me feel like we are not apart too far away.. But i still missing him alots.. Miss the time that we do together..miss the time that i waiting him to go back home.. miss the time that i cook lunch or dinner for him.. miss the time that i can always complaining the problems or guests that making trouble and etc... But i always remind my self to be more stronger more independant so that my family and him wont be so worry at me... If one day god can realize my dream, i wish the passed time can back once again... But thanks for my trainees who ever playing around and chatting with me.. They make me feel like i wasn't alone here..

Besides 5 more days for me to countdown my best friend leave me to Singapore... Again i still cant believe that i was here for alomost a month.. Perhaps because of my friend with me so i still wont feel so lonely and boring.. But i really appreciate for her kindness for helping me and accompany me for this month.. although the dream to work together and staying in same room were only a month time, but it give me alot of sweet and funny memories... I think without her i may not be so strong enough to continue staying at here for this month...

Seriously to say, i feel very sad that she leaving us... She indeed a nice girl who ever i meet before.. She always bring joyful and happiness for us.. Alw Caring us and threat us like a part of her family..I think we will mssing her always...


** Dear MFYIP,

I appreciate sincerely for being with me in this month.. U r indeed a nice girl and always sacrified urself to make everyone feel happy.. I do wish u can take care well of urself at Sinagpore and always be more cheerful.. Thanks for everything.. Whenever u need me or wish to get people to talk, i am always wlecome to find me...

Take care! Miss u always! **

My Life~

Time really flied fast.. I so long never updated my blog already...

I still cant believe at myself that i was in Penang and start my working life for a week time already.. Now i m thinking back last week when i came to Penang that day, i feel so lonely and sad till i cry because missing my family and my Darling so much and being apart with them...

That time i really doubt at my decision.. " DO i really make a right decision? or should i listen at my darling quit now before i regret n etc...?" all the questions started appearing on my mind.. Make me feel so confusing..

But at the end i decide to choose to stay and try it.. I really wish to give myself a chance to try and test myself whether i can do it or not... If the result end up is the failure at least i try before better than i didn't try anything...

But in this a week time, i started learn to be more independent and live by myself.. For now, i still have Mei Fang with me...she really take care at me and accompany me where ever i wish to do.. She indeed a best friend but i do understand this kind of life wont be last longer..I have to prepare myself to be more stronger before Mei Fang leaving me..I have to be tough so that my family and Darling wont be worry at me always.. I really feel so sorry at my selfishness and causing so much people worry at me..

Working time really can make me temporarily stop thinking nonsense things and decrease my loneliness.. Now my work wasn't like last time when i had training that time so free and not much plessure... Work getting harder and much plessure.. But i really hope that i can make it sucess and prove to myself that i can do it.. Show to people who look down me that i m not a WEAKER!!

Now i wish can do well at my work and time can fly faster so that i can go visit my Darling as soon as possible.. I really missing him alotss...

** Gambateh, sim Sim!! U can DO it one!! Believe at urself... **

Happy ^^

Finally today i got some good news can be celebrate.. haha..Recently happen so many things.. i really didn't feel happy for a long time...

Ermm... why i will feel so happy leh?

hehe.. Firstly today i received a call from my college.. Ms Zety told me that the lecturer who marks my report very happy and satisfied and want to keep it as a reference for other juniors..

But the most important thing is.....

Wakaka~ Finally I can get a A for my report... and i got 90%!!! Argh...it is unbelievable... 90/100 is consider a high marks for me already.. i thought my report will only can get 70-80 like that only.. who knows...

I felt so proud at myself.. i don't know my report marks will be highest in my class or anot.. but at least I know what i do is worth and not wasted.. I do wish i can get the highest marks in my class.. but dunno I have that chance or anot...

Secondly, my friend told me that i can got back some of the money that i lost.. thanks god for blessing me.. i feel very happy because i really bangkrupt and no moeny anymore.. This money really come on time and save my life..

* Thanks for the god.. I do appreciate it so so much... *